11 May 2012
2140
Hello !
It’s been a while since my last update . Been busy with the studies and thinking of having job . Now that I’m back home at KK and the house has been installed with WiFi and internet connection , hope that I can update my Tumblr frequently .
Enough with my opening , now for my point of view . My life getting more and more sucks living with my family than living alone in far away place like last time when I’m in Ranau . I’ve a lot more responsibilities and work to do , but at the same time have to focus on my study because I was told to continue my studies ! How I wish to just have a job and live far from them . It felt like whatever you do in this house has bad consequences . When you not going to school , they will nag and as if you don’t want to continue your study even if it was the time where you don’t have any class on that day or your class has been cancelled . But when you not at home and seldom gone out for a drink with friends or back a bit late waiting for the jammed to pass , they also will mad at you for coming home late ; and yet all the housework is yours to handled when you’re home .
The most thing I hate being at home with my family around is that you won’t have the privacy for yourself . Even if you want to change clothes or watching movies on your laptop , you will only have one hour before they realize you were at home and start going in and out from your room asking stupid question or telling you to wash the clothes and cook and blah-blah-blah . And sometimes when you’re seriously studying for the examination or mid-term quizzes , they’ll have plenty of housework list or work that you have to do such as fetch your brother and sister from school or buy things at certain place and send the item to other places ! ( Thank you for the lists ! )
So , sometimes or always ( for me ) , you will think that maybe it’s time for you to stop studying and concentrate in helping you BIG FAMILY ( I have 9 siblings and a father and mother ) doing housework or working to earn for a living , then there they will also nag-nag-nag about you should not stop studying , continue your studies and I’ll give you extra money if what I give you is not enough for your studies and other sweet things that they won’t even mention when you’re helping them ! I don’t care if they give you tons of housework to do and do things this and that and things that you’re not supposed to do but help them on their behalf ; but the thing is they NEVER appreciate or say ’ THANKS ’ after done helping them . And the things that I hate the most is when they start to tell you to do things , they didn’t even bother to give you money to eat while you’re doing all that things and the way they ask for help is always started using shouting at you to help them .
The way they ask you for help is , sometimes it in a soft tone but then this will happen , ” Do this ONE thing for me , go to your brother and fetch him from school and then stop by the market to buy fish , after that you deposit this money into my account in this bank and later send your brother to tuition . “ And the other way around is by shouting . So , I seldom going back earlier and prefer to be at home while they gone and shut myself inside the room and deaf my ear when they shouting for my name . Ha ha ha .
So that’s what happen to me and I guess some of you also have the same problem . The problem solved when you are out from the house ( e.g married or working outstation or rent a house / room ) . Now , it’s time to do some work to work . Thanks for reading . :D
Love sees sharply , hatred sees even more sharp , but jealousy sees the sharpest for it is love and hate at the same time .
It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get.
– Rene DescartesGoodbyes are not forever.
Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply mean I’ll miss you
Until we meet again!
Promise me you’ll never forget me because if I thought you would I’d never leave.
I wanted a perfect ending. Now I’ve learned, the hard way, that some poems don’t rhyme, and some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next.
The return makes me love the farewell.
A man never knows how to say goodbye; a woman never knows when to say it.
Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.
16 Nov 2010
1503
In my room feeling boring and tired . I’m sad right as my bf was on his way here with his friend to stay here for a night . It’s not that I sad that my bf want to come here , it’s because my family are on the way going back here too . I never talk to them anymore now as many things happen to me that make them mad . Huh . What a life ya ? I extended my study, came here in Ranau to learn on how to make business , but then a lot of unexpected things happen . Haiya . Someone I knew for a long-long time confess to me , have problem with my bf and scandals , business went down and many more . He, who give me Claudia makes me thinking about my future . He always advice me to take care of myself and be polite . It’s not like my bf don’t do the same thing to me , but sometimes I don’t feel like respecting him as what have he done to me in the past . Now , I have two guys in my life that I really-really care about ! But , he have her and I got him . So again, it’s called ’ Scandal ’ AGAIN ! To my sweet scandal , we can’t meet for couple days . So , I’m gonna miss you soooo much .
p/s : I forgot that I have a date with my cousin at 3 ! Thinking too much about him and him . :p Now it’s 4:30 p.m ! Damn ! Bye-bye !
